I now and then will post personal information here mostly because I am dumbfounded at times regarding the human race and feel the need to vent.
I realize we are not in a perfect world, and observing the myriad of ways individuals treat, or mistreat their fellow man, woman or child I am always surprised at what people do or how far they will go. The lack of integrity in our world is disheartening at times. I’m rambling, so I will get to the point.
Two nights ago I was having a nice dinner with my dear friend. After dinner I went to the Verizon store to iron out some issues with my new phone. Without realizing it, I somehow dropped or kicked my wallet out of my truck. I had just cashed my Christmas checks and had well over $500 in the wallet. As soon as I realized what had happened I backtracked my steps. The wallet was turned into the store, thankfully, but of course the cash was gone. I keep trying to console myself by telling myself it could have been worse. The entire wallet could have been gone, with those ramifications; so I am trying positive thinking. In going over the issue in my mind for two days, it brought to mind another time in my life when my car was stolen back in 2003; these thoughts leading to my lack of understanding. I will never understand the attitude of someone who sees something, wants that something, so they just take it. Damn the consequences to the victim. I was fortunate my money had no definite earmark, but I kept thinking, what if it was my rent, car payment, medication money.
Where does the integrity break down? Who is responsible? Is it the parents lack of influence? Is it the examples of government officials or corporate leaders who cheat, steal and lie, and are never brought to justice? Is it the schools, churches? When does a person decide to be the person they will be? At what age? One would like to think that at some point of adulthood, a person takes the reins and decides who and what they will be in spite of the past, present or future. I know there is no easy answer, and people continue to live as they want and justify whatever they do, be it good, bad, or gray. In contrast there is much good done by people to and for people. It isn’t black and white. It just leaves me frustrated to be a victim of someone’s lack of integrity. I just hope maybe it was a family with children who really needed the money. Still not a lot of comfort in that. It belonged to me, dang-it and I want it back! Just felt the need to vent.
Thanks for reading.